divide and conquer

so we are slowly figuring this family of 4 business out. since ellie is still so young, i've been sort of stuck in the house lately. (well, aside from dropping and picking addison up from school and the occasional brief trip to the store). and i feel bad that i haven't been able to take addison out on the whim to all the places and things that we used to do. i realize one of the hardest parts of going from 1 child to 2 for me is the guilt factor for the first child. i feel guilty that i'm not able to give addison my undivided attention at home.... or be able to hop in the car and just go anywhere with her. jimmy tries to take her out when he's home... but he's been swamped with work stuff lately so it obviously is not as often as with me during the pre-ellie days. but this past saturday, jimmy stayed home with ellie while i took addison to her friend's birthday party. it was SO NICE to get out of the house and do something with my first born. and i could tell that she really enjoyed her mommy and me time as much as me! :)