19 weeks

well, i just started my 19th week of pregnancy. and actually, we had our anatomy ultrasound today. about 4 years ago when we had the same ultrasound for when i was pregnant with addison, the technician and doctors had found that my umbilical cord was not normal. i had what is called a Single Umbilical Artery (also known as a 2-vessel cord). a normal umbilical cord consists of two arteries and one vein. and mine only had one artery and one vein. so what happens to the baby in this situation? well, the baby could have a number of problems.. in particular heart problems or kidney problems. luckily, addison was born just fine for the most part, but did have one dialated kidney and one enlarged kidney. both issues are getting better and there is no reason for concern anymore. but at that time of discovery, as any new parents, we were freaked out and scared that our first born baby would have complications. it was terrifying! i cried for days. so going in today to have this ultrasound had been leaving me nervous and anxious for weeks. i was praying that i wouldn't have that SUA again. i barely slept last night. well, as the technician started working, she proceeded to tell us everything looked great! whew! what a relief! i don't have a SUA and all organs and the size of the baby looked normal. and on top of all of that we found out the sex of the baby today. and it's another GIRL! i had in my head and felt in my gut from the beginning that it was a boy... guess i was wrong! so much for my maternal instincts! :) having a sister myself, i know how close the bond is between sisters. so in that sense, i'm really happy for us and for addison especially. i know they will be playmates and best friends for life. but on the other hand, i know how excited jimmy was about the possibility of having a son. so though it was extremely happy news that the baby looked healthy all around, i felt bad that it wasn't the boy he had always wanted. i could sense his slight disappointment as she told us... he was all of sudden nervously taking lots of quick sips of his coffee. :( but i know he's happy regardless because we created another child together and it doesn't matter what the sex is as long as the baby is healthy. this child comes from our love together and is a true blessing and gift from God. well, i guess there is the possiblity of trying for a third child... buuuut that chance is slim since i told myself and jimmy that i think i only want 2. but i guess i should say "never say never", right?? :)

here she is.... baby girl kim....